i,ve been off that crap it,ll be 8 years this novemeber 2012......i started going down hill from all that speed.......started turning into ahh sky ward patient.....i found out who the real devil is......i found out who the real god is but seriously when i found out who the real devil & i started seeing the sick fucks that stupid fucken thing turns people into.....i take my sobriety a little bit more serious......i go to church a little bit more often.....its kinds funny how my grandma reads off her rosery to hail mary everyday alot times ahh day....she died april 16 2012.....fuck did i ever love my grandma i lived with them for ahh couple of years & i had alot of brain dead years.....big slob big dummy big phony bullonie......its kindda true when u use hard drugs yer kindda taking ahh risk......some people really go down hill because of shit like that.....i don,t really go to those narcotics anymous meetings anymore......i use to go & i,d just laugh my fucken head off people whould start saying you know whats wrong with you......you don,t look normal you don,t act normal you don,t sound normal........its just devil who was destroying me......this stupid fucken thing wants to take me to hell......i don,t want to come to hell......respect that balck bird he,s the devil.....when that black bird he hits that squrill & those fucken rats go running up to the squirll......thats when you no its fucken hell out here....lifes ahh joke.....hopefully one day i,ll keep it real