[RACHEL02189]

When Criss got back to his room his mom was waiting for him. He gave his mother a hug. "How are you Christopher?"she asked. "Honestly I feel like I'm going in two different direction. One direction is telling me to forget about life, another one is telling me that I need to find out what's going on up here" pointing to his head. "Mrs. Sonnytag said that if you don't you may be staying here permently" she replied. Criss got up and looked out the window. "Nikki thinks it has to do with dad and his death"Criss stated. "Christopher I've been thinking that myself when your father died you stopped doing magic but when you went back it was like your father didn't died. I think you went back so you could stop thinking of your father's death". "But why is it hitting now I had control of it "Criss asked.

"Maybe that wall you built around your father's death is breaking and those feelings are coming back but stronger"his mother remarked. Criss sighed. "I know this is hard to relive the pain you had but maybe it's time to knock that wall down Christopher and let those emotions out" she said. "I don't know if I'm ready to let those feelings out" as a tear fell down his face. His mother got up and gave him a kiss. "I know you can Christopher"she stated. Criss gave his mother a hug and told her he loved her. "I know you do" and she left. As Dimitra was leaving she saw Nikki outside. "Nicole". Nikki turned and saw Dimitra. "Hey Dimitra how are you?" giving her a hug. "I'm doing good but I just hope that Christopher can get control of his depression" she worried. "Dimitra he just has to find a way too and I know he will" Nikki assured her. "Do me a favor Nicole I need you to look after my baby I don't want to lose him". "I'll try Dimitra" and gave her a hug one more time before she left.

That night Criss was laying in bed when a rain storm hit. Criss got up and went to the window as the rain fall. Criss could see himself back in the family home while rain could be heard outside. He walked into his father's room while everyone was surround him. Tears started to fall down Christopher's face. "You all right?". Criss turned and saw Nikki. "Nikki what are you doing here you're going to get into trouble"Criss said. She closed the door behind her. "Criss I wanted to tell you that in a few days I'm being released and I want to help you so when I get out I want to go back to my job instead of the unemployment line" she stated. "I think you're right my dad is the trigger" still looking at the rain. "Why don't you tell my mom this?". "I'm afraid to". Nikki went over to him and wiped a tear from his face. "Criss your father wouldn't be happy to know that he's the reason you want to die. You got to let go of that feeling that making the depression go from moderate to funeral so to speak". Criss smiled as Nikki left his room.