After rehearsal I felt like I was cloud nine I couldn't wait for my parents to see me on stage. Around two in the morning Criss's phone started to ring. Wondering who was calling him at this hour he picked up the phone. "Hello" he said. "Hey Criss I'm sorry to wake you but I didn't know who else to call". Criss sat up when he realized it was me. "Racheal what's wrong you sound upset". "It's my dad Criss he had a heart attack and died in his sleep. I'm going to have to drop out of RENT" I replied. "I'm sorry to hear that Racheal". "Thanks Criss tell Zack I'm sorry" I stated and hung up. The next morning Criss was sitting on the stage thinking as tears fell down his face. "Hey Criss what's wrong someone die?"Jesse inquired. "Yea Racheal's father he had a fatally heart attack last night" Criss stated. "And it's bringing back memories of your own father's death". "Yea I feel bad for her she worked so hard to get to this now it falls apart" Criss remarked. With out warning the sprinklers went off and Criss and Jesse ran out before they got elecuted. Back in my hometown I was sitting in my room listening to the song WILL I as tears fell down my face.
Will I lose my dignity
Will someone care
Will I wake tomorrow
From this nightmare?
I felt like I was in a nightmare and I wanted to wake up but I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. A knock came to the door and it was my mom. "Honey there's someone downstairs to see you"she said. I wiped the tears away from my eyes and turned off the CD. When I got down stairs I saw it was Criss looking nice he even shaved. "Christopher what are you doing here?"I asked surprised to see him. "I came to pay my respect and bring a little bit of good news,"he replied. "The sprinkler system in the theater malfunctioned so the play is put on hold untill they can fix it". "That's great news Racheal now you can do RENT now"my mom stated. "Yea but I'm not going to do Rent excuse me" and went outside. "I don't get it she was so happy to get that role now she doesn't want it". Criss knew very well what I was going through since he went through it himself.
Outside I was sitting on the porch while the song WILL I played in my head. My head played back the funeral and the hurt I was feeling. "Racheal"A voice called out. I turned around and saw Criss with a tissue in his hand. "Thanks Criss"I remarked as I wiped the tears from my face. "Racheal I know what you're going through". "I know you lost your father too. I just can't focus I remember the last conversion I had with him telling him about the show and how happy he was. He-told me he'd be there with a bouquet of roses-" as tears fell down my face. "Racheal I know how hard it is to lose someone believe me I was the same way when my dad dead. I couldn't focus on magic as I grieved for my dad. My mom and my brothers all said go back but I every time I would screw up and it just drove me nuts. I knew I had to come to terms with my father's death and it took some time but I did and I know you will". I walked over to Criss and he gave me a hug as I cried. "I miss him so much Criss"I replied. "I know you do Racheal it's going to be all right"he said as I cried in Criss's arm.